Luke... It's your Mommy

Tonight you and had the greatest conversation and I wanted to record every word because it was so special. Everything was quiet in the house and you and I were watching TV in my bed as I cleaned out my jewelry box. You were giving my your opinions on stuff and you seem to be the pack rat not wanting me to throw anything out. You get that from Noni.

There was a bracelet in a little satin bag that you asked me about. You reminded me that once before I told you I had a story about it when you got older. And, you reminded me that 5 1/2 years old is "older". So, I told you that the bracelet was pink and blue and had 2 special charms on it to represent 2 babies that are in heaven because they are angels. You asked me why they went there. I asked you if you remembered the special oranament on our tree. You said yes that I'd bought it for our baby but that baby went to be with Jesus before that Christmas. I was shocked at how well you remembered and even said that baby would always have an ornament on our tree. We talked about people going to heaven and that God is always in control. You said you wished we could have those 2 babies in our house and I told you I did too, but we would see them in heaven and one day we will hold them.

Luke, you were so sweet and had a sad little look on your face but you understood how special the bracelet was. You are getting so big and have such a kind heart. You asked if they were sick and when I told you one was and then you asked if I prayed for God to heal that baby. I told you that I did at first then I prayed for God to give me the strength to accept his will. You said, "God needed the sick baby in heaven"? I said yes he did and one day when I go to heaven I will have 4 kids just like I wanted. You were concerned about being the oldest! It is hard to explain things but somehow you just understood! I love you Luke.